I received a news regarding the death of a dear friend's mother. Innalillah. I was at the clinic - just done with my patient; when my other friend spilled the news, said that our friend is now searching for flight tickets and what not. I am basically new here, i havent had that one best buddy yet but everyone is just so nice, that a heart breaking news like that made me paused. I am not related to her, but the impact was not small on me. I texted her, but received no reply; i called (being the impatient me) and she answered - melancholy. I couldnt bear 1 minute being on the phone with her, so i ended the call.
It happens. Shit happens. (Happened to me - so whats new?)
The one thing i have to bear in mine - i couldnt always be there (for my family), or maybe i couldnt be there :(( Be it bad things or good things... i'm here, and all i can do is become affected - sorrow with a bad news or jumping with a good one. I can hear voices, look at photos, video conferencing but i cant touch 'em, i cant walk with 'em, help 'em ..... and a bunch more stuffs of i cant... *sigh*
|i miss all of you!|
On the 22nd of March, my beloved sister, Nini gave birth to her first son (second child) Elyas. I received a text from her, her husband and my mom :) I was so happy for her, i literally told everyone i came across with (here)! LOL If only i was there, i would jump into my car, drive straight to Pantai Medical, Bangsar.. oh well.. Being as excited as everyone else, i cant wait for everyone to upload photos of Elyas - i bugged everyone!! hahaha
And now, more than a week later, i still bug 'em - how much does he weigh now? who does he look like? Does Iman mention my name? Do you guys still go to that place bla bla bla..? Well i am just plain homesick! I wont lie - that its nice here (except for the weather), i love Endodontics more and more, i get along well (if not very well :p) with everyone here, my pregnancy is super - no sickness; but its just not the same... what can i say.. Its just not as smooth, or nice, or closer :)
Regardless of all the complaints, i am truly blessed to be here with both Tahir and Khalish *tight hugs*. They are just wonderful people - i love them so so much (who doesnt love their husband and child huh? :p)! I would make an effort to hug 'em at least once daily - just so they know that i am very thankful for having them here with me; or else Dunedin will be a lot colder!! LOL
Do you hug your husband/wife and kid(s) everyday? Back home, i had so many stuffs going on that sometimes i forgot - i mean its just a hug - i'll hug 'em tomorrow *whistle*. Khalish was with our maid, that gave me a ticket on planning stuffs and projects for myself - which is not so good; i mean you can do lotsa stuffs with your kid(s) right? Yeaa maybe not going to the spa - but i dont even go the spa!! But i would choose to go shopping with a friend instead of with Khalish (which i would ask our maid to tag along).. or instead of joining a gym with tahir, i would go with a girlfriend... hmmm... things i did when i was younger LOL and am not so proud of...
|My heartbeats (and another one in the oven)|
Now, no maid, no help, no excuse!! :) I have to cook, or be nice to Tahir so that he would cook - which in reality he does (he is just wonderful!), have Khalish ready for school, read with him, play with him, everything! But i dont do this alone - Tahir helps a lot!! By saying a lot, i mean a whole zamn lot! I am just blessed - Alhamdulillah :D He cooks breakfasts, lunches and (sometimes) dinner for us :) He washes, scrubs, dries and all that! For these, i thank him - everyday! We would hug and i would cry sometimes (thats so me!! i know right?!) - in appreciation.
Being far from home is definitely closer to home *cloud9*